thoughts today

1. 我妈这三年来受了多少苦，没人有权利对她说三道四。这个世界对她太不公平了。以后我要对她好些

2. It doesn't take courage or skill to be angry. Better to convince others they're wrong than to throw it in their faces.

3. 我妈有个朋友，丈夫生前是我爸的一个病友。自从她丈夫去了后她下班的时候经常会来看我爸，检查一下他的情况，照顾一下起居。她还有一个聋哑女儿，所以曾经特意去学了手语，有的时候会教我爸做手势。今天我和我妈离开医院时，我爸突然对着我拍了拍他的胸口，手伸出来掌心向我，然后屈起了中指和无名指。这是”I love you"的手语。我突然反应过来，因为那天那位阿姨教我爸时我也在场。我立即也向他打出了同样的手势，然后我们两人会心的笑了一笑。If there was ever a moment shared that could be called "a moment", that was it =0). 我爸病的那么重，头脑还是很清楚，记性还是那么好，学习新知识的欲望还是那么强，真的让我体会到了“活到老学到老”这句话的精髓。

4. My grandfather died from being imprisoned in 牛棚 after the "anti-rightist" movement. And i remember my dad took me to 拜祭 him when i was really little. My dad would always tell me wistfully that one of his biggest regret was that his father wasn't able to see him become a father
I'm really sad that I'll most likely have to tell my child that too